i hate you. no i don't, do i?
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im getting really bi-polar and i hate it. i happy one minute and totally wrecked the next. not a cool way to live life. im not really bi-polar but i think the instability of my emotions is caused by the instability of my life. no, my home life is fine. its my personal social life that is....dormant, stagnant, dead. and every false hope that the situation might change rocks my foundations. i feel like i will perpetually remain in this limbo. it really sucks.
saying i need to wait till college is probably true, and also painful to think about. i'd hate to wish away the final year of high school to get to college. fuck it. it doesn't matter anyway. what will wishing change?
im listing to dance/house/trance. i feel so great when i do. the artist is forced to pick one sound-byte. and then they do all sorts of beats, but that sound-byte becomes the central piece. its always filled with meaning. unlike the empty lyrics of so many songs. maybe thats why i like this kind of music so much.
i saw spiderman 2. didn't like it. nuff said.
one of my computers broke. i think its a sign to stop using them. maybe it is. when i get bored enough i'll repair it. yeah....
go die. i hate you all. fuck everything. im feeling angry. grrrrrr.
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i know what you mean. lately. things are screwed. schools coming up in september. parents are always on your back.friends are off on vacation or hanging out with other friends/girlfriends/boyfriends and you never get included.no sex, no drugs,no wine,no women,no fun, no sin....sorry quoting the Vapors on that one.but basically, that hits the target. you're feeling lonely and no one else seems to care. and you're mad at them for not caring. and they're mad at you for being mad at them ( b/c they dont know what they did) and they tell other people you're fucking insane and then no one ever talks to you....rambling. but true. its like that for a lot of us lately, nick. dont feel bad, it'll pass. you know you can get over it and be normal soon enough. go out and do something i guess. that's what i do. go to the beach or go biking or go for a run with the people who DO stick by your side ( they're there, trust me. you may have just forgotten about them thru your being pissed and such).we're here for you. moral support, you know.
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